Maybe i ought to be happy, doing things that i havent done for a long time...like playing soccer or going to tuition on friday with frenz or havign a family reunion or jus stoning in front of the news while on the fone....but i aint...soemthing is missing...i feel empty..... maybe i'll jus let it disappear into the abyss of time and forgotten memories...i suppose its best if i do that.....